That's right . I feel empty . I feel lost . Things have changed . Some are alright, some have just got into trouble . I want to help my friends but I've lent too much of 'a helping hand' . That makes it hands . And I've only got two so I can't control anything much now . Fuck , I'm going insane . ARGHH ! Going jamming tomorrow . Mum allowed but I have to reach home by six . Fuck that . She seems not to trust me . She worries there's many boys in the band . Excuse me , not all boys are bad . They aren't of course . My friends are all great . So I asked Eyba and Irah to come along . I told mum that . She was like, "For real or not ? You can't tell lies . If you lie , one day it'll come back to you ." HEY I've got proof ! "Okay, I'll ask them later. " Are you really going to, ma ? No you're not ! How are you going to ? Now only God knows who's following and such ! And I'm telling the truth for Goddamn sake !! I hate my family's behaviours . Everyone , not relatives . But my mum , dad and my fucking irritating brother . Yea, Dan . Whenever I'm on the computer , he wants to go Facebook . It sounds matured for a nine year old boy but hell no , he only plays Pet Society . Stupid game . -.- Empty , empty , empty . I want to be empty , I don't want to be somebody , I wanna be Nobody . Cause nobody's perfect . And being Nobody is perfect enough cause you are not anything , you don't have problems/life/love .. I suppose I have to enjoy 5 hours of freedom tomorrow , then the rest is returned . I hate being controlled .